Well, I cheated yesterday…

1 Oct

Yep, it’s true.  I confess.  I told myself I wouldn’t do it.  Told myself to wait…

But, there I was…

10:30 yesterday morning…

waiting for Zumba to start, and you know, the scale was just around the corner.  I couldn’t help myself, so I…

Oh, wait.  No.  Did you…?  Did you think I was talking about brownies?

Oh, wow.  No!  You see, I told myself that I’d only weigh myself once a week – on Mondays when Tom and I go to the Y for our morning workouts.  But, for some reason I couldn’t not step on the scale.  To my pleasant surprise, I had lost another 2.5 pounds – which means, now I’m up to 7.5 total lost pounds!  Yes, I AM excited.

However, last night’s dinner does make me have some mildly-crazed thoughts that when I DO get back on the scale on Monday morning, it might not be 2.5 pounds, but perhaps less.  Now, for dinner, I had some wine, one small spoonful of corn pudding, 5 – 6 oz of steak and some yummy arugula, pear, grilled fig, blue cheese and toasted pecan salad with honey Dijon vinaigrette.  Dessert, as you well know, was brownies – al a mode. 

I’m worried that perhaps I gained one of those pounds back.  But, you know what?  As long as I’m still moving in the same direction – down – then all is good.  Like I’ve mentioned before (and have to tell myself over and over and over again) this is a lifestyle change.  Sometimes in life there will be corn pudding and brownies, and I don’t want to tell myself I can’t have them.  And, today, and Sunday, I will compensate by having less carbs.  It’s all about choices – conscious ones.

“Say yes to yourself. There are plenty of people in the world that will say no to you.”

Isn’t that a fabulous statement?  I heard this little sound bite in the car last week from Audra McDonald.  It almost makes me teary right now as I think about it.  I actually wrote it down on one of those nasty little subscription ads that fall out of every magazine ever made.  I was lying in bed, remembered I’d heard it and didn’t want to forget.  It made me think – that’s what I’m doing right now.  I’m saying yes to myself, and no to the excess brownie batter.  Yes, yes…I’m worth the yes.  I’ve said no for far too long. 

And, speaking of brownies….well, I did take one little chocolate-chip-sized taste of the batter to make sure it tasted fine.  And, guess what?  I noticed how eggy it tasted – not an appealing flavor in raw, sugary goodness.  A worthy observation, I’d say. 

So, I served up our brownies for dessert – as I mentioned, a la mode – and about half way thru the ice cream, I realized, I didn’t want it.  I just wanted the chocolaty goodness of the brownie.  Now, I did eat a few broken bits of brownie as I was dishing them up.  BUT, half the pan went home with my mom and dad for their freezer, and three went to the Reserve Golf Course this morning with Tom for his pal, Artie.  (It’s Artie’s birthday, too.)  Ain’t no mo’ brownies in the house.  All in all – quite a successful experiment.   

I’m pretty proud of myself right now…and I’m not ashamed to admit it!

One Response to “Well, I cheated yesterday…”

  1. LES October 2, 2011 at 8:27 pm #


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