What a difference an ‘LB’ makes…

17 Oct

I was in the emotional dumper last week.  Thursday all I wanted to do was sleep and ignore everything – especially the fact that I’m dieting.  Yes, I know, this isn’t a diet – it’s a lifestyle change.  BUT, at times (when I can’t /choose not to binge), it feels like a diet.

You know what I was up against?  The realization that this is going to be hard.  I know, this may sound incredibly obvious – a big ‘DUH’ to some of you out there.   But, I guess I had to come down out of the clouds – return from the honeymoon of my new lifestyle changes to get it.  I had to really FEEL that it was hard.

In the past, I think I’ve basically given up when things get tough.  It’s easier than dealing with it, right?  I believe the first line of M. Scott Peck’s book “The Road Less Traveled” is “Life is difficult.”  He goes on to say, “Once we know that life is difficult- once we truly understand and accept it – then life is no longer difficult.”

I’m thinking I need to come to this kind of acceptance about giving up certain things that I used to find as a comfort – and dealing with the feelings that made me want to turn to food in the first place.  So, okay, this IS going to be difficult – now what?  I’m also hoping, though, that sometimes it won’t be difficult.   As I get more used to the changes, maybe some will seem like second nature.  These are things I can’t know now.

My therapist and I also came up with a list of things to do when the journey gets difficult.  Some of these include: blog; text someone (by the way I’m looking for a few volunteers for this!); leave the house for – a walk, trip to the library, coffee.  I also decided that when I go out to eat, it would be good to develop a new habit of leaving a little something behind on the plate – just to help create that mentality of being satisfied with less – to help relieve the desperation that sometimes comes with eating.  Of course, I went out to eat the very next night and completely forgot about this idea.  I’ll be eating out in Seattle, however, and I’m going to put it into practice.

A big goal for me is going to be eating lunch at the table or counter, and not in front of the TV.  Wanting to eat lots and watching TV seem to go hand-in-hand for me.  I don’t know why this goal feels so daunting, but it does.  So, for this week, I’m committing to one lunch without the TV on.  I’m pretty sure I can do that.

As I wrap up the first month of my plan (I just realized it’s already been a month!), and enter into the second, I’m pleased to discover that I’ve lost another pound!  This makes me very happy, as I figured with my vacation and some wishy-washy food recording, I wasn’t sure where I’d sit on the scale.  I was so excited to see that the numbers were still going down.  It’s given me some new motivation as I have now lost a total of nine pounds!

5 Responses to “What a difference an ‘LB’ makes…”

  1. Susan Sopp October 17, 2011 at 7:46 pm #

    9 LBS is AWESOME!!!!! I can totally relate to the TV and EATING like CRAZY thing….I need to break that habit too. I do it at night…..UGH! You go Kendall LYNN YOU CAN DO THIS no matter how DIFFICULT it is…..D E T E R M I N A T I O N baby. I need to put my STUBBORNESS to good work and adjust my eating also……GO KENDI GO!!!!!

  2. sunnydaydude October 18, 2011 at 3:29 pm #

    Kendall I will go on your text buddy list if you want. Also great idea about gettting away from the tv.

  3. moobabes October 19, 2011 at 7:05 pm #

    Sorry for the delay, I’ve been reading but didn’t sign up.

    Dang girl you’re doing great. What about adding :: yelling at the top of your lungs inside or outside of your car to relieve anger? Works for moi.

    Text me! Love you.

  4. April Severson October 19, 2011 at 10:47 pm #

    NINE pounds gone, hey good for you. That is really a wonderful number indeed.

    I so understand the need to come to a realization about eating. I find that I have to constantly remind myself about what works and what just does not, it’s a daily thing and will continue to be daily I guess. Sigh.

    Well we can do it.

  5. Carol October 24, 2011 at 4:52 pm #

    Kendall, you’re doing great….keep it up!

    Something I do at restaurants that I think is good is just order small plates or appetizers. If I have soup or salad first, I’m kind of full, then just order a protein appy instead of an entree.

    Good luck-

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