Some positive steps and the aftermath…

22 Dec

well, after the big binge today, a friend suggested I drink at least 5 glasses of water and go work out. 

I had therapy at 2:00 (good timing – it had been on the books for 2 weeks), a haircut at 3:00…when I got home, I took a 20 minute nap and then headed to the gym.  It was kind of a painful treadmill session – with a stomach full of grease and fat, I felt at one point like I might throw up.  Thank goodness I didn’t.  My system hasn’t had this amount of this kind of gunk in it for a long time, and it’s really pissed off.  I managed to have a turkey patty and half an apple for dinner, but wasn’t really hungry.

I’ve taken tums twice, AND consumed some baking soda in water with a twist of lime to make me burrrrrrrrrrrp, but my tummy is still rebeling.  I’m so afraid I’m going to have some reflux tonight, but, I’ve made my bed and now I have to suffer the consequences.  I’m trying to find a way to capture this feeling so I will know in the future I don’t want to feel this way again.  I’m still working on that one.  I need to find a visual representation for how I feel so I can use it when I THINK eat that many chips again might be a good idea.

On another note, my red handbag arrived today and it was extremely anticlimatic because I didn’t feel that I deserved it after the binge.  It actually made me want to cry.  I took the box, tossed it in the guest room and closed the door.  I’m really hoping tomorrow I’ll feel better and can enjoy the purse and embrace the accomplishments it has taken for me to receive it.

Hoping for a much better day tomorrow.  And, hoping I can forgive myself for today’s misstep.  I need to learn that lesson, so here’s the perfect opportunity.

One Response to “Some positive steps and the aftermath…”

  1. Carol December 22, 2011 at 4:53 pm #

    Hi Kendall, hope you are feeling better today! I love the “drink water and work out” suggestion. That’s what I do when I’m full. Your new healthy way of eating has already become a part of your lifestyle, otherwise you wouldn’t have felt so bad after the chips!

    Hope you and Tom have a Merry Christmas!


    BTW, you sure do deserve that purse

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