Archive | February, 2012

Feeling a little loosy-goosy about my food right now…

29 Feb

after an Oscar party and a night out with the girls.  So, I feel the need to make a food commitment for tomorrow, Wednesday:

Breakfast: yogurt, fruit, granola OR cereal, fruit and milk; coffee

Lunch: chicken or tuna salad; fruit

Snack: few nuts and fruit

Dinner: (going out so…) probably soup and salad and 1 glass of wine

Wednesday’s plan!

If I were made of money…

27 Feb

this might be easier…the baggy clothes dilemma.

My clothes are getting too big.  Yes, this is a good thing – very!  But, it’s getting harder and harder to wear the clothes I have.  Belts can only help for so long. 

I DID have my dress pants altered and most of them fit pretty well now (though two pair aren’t perfect) – I’ve got about 6 pair I can wear in which I feel/look pretty good.  BUT, my casual clothes – jeans, etc. are getting really baggy through the hips and belly and they look (and more importantly) FEEL yucky.  It makes me feel sloppy.

Yesterday, I went to Macy’s to return a blouse, and while there tried on a whole dressing room full of clothes.  In an unusual turn of events, all of the jeans I tried on fit well and looked really good…all were 2 sizes smaller than what I wore when I started all of this back in September.  I was SO excited.

BUT, and yes, there is a but…the 2 pair of jeans I bought were $130 bucks.  (I know, for some of you this seems like a really good deal.)  If I were going to have these jeans for the next couple of years, I wouldn’t think twice about it.  But, it feels financially irresponsible to spend that much on two pair of pants that might only fit me well for 2 – 3 months.  Plus, I have to pay someone to shorten them for me – more $$$. 

I could have a couple pair of my jeans taken in, BUT, they may not be a perfect fit once they are done.  I’m torn as to what to do.  Especially since I’ve got a significant amount of weight to lose over the next year or so, which means I’m going to change sizes several times between now and my ultimate goal.

It shouldn’t be frustrating (gee, what a terrible problem to have – you are losing weight AND getting to buy new clothes) but it is.  I don’t know what to do. Can you put a price on feeling good in your clothes, especially when you haven’t felt good in a long time?  Another crazy thing is – I LIKE some of my current clothes and it can be a little hard to give them away. 

I’m not really sure what the answer is.  A friend yesterday suggested I check the Goodwill, which I hadn’t thought of.  I think I’ll try that.  Often times, there are items that still have the tags on them.  Oh yeah, and I’m DEFINITELY going to need a few new pieces before I go to Europe in May, which will be more money spent.  I’m thinking 2 pair of pants, a pair of shorts, and maybe a skirt, along with a few shirts.  Hmmmm…

Is it a worthwhile investment to buy a couple of new things every few months (or s0) when my size changes?  The baggy shirts aren’t quite as bad.  It’s the pants – the sloppy feeling when they become too big.

I am looking for any and all suggestions.  If you have some, please send them my way.  For now, I need to decide about the new jeans.  I’m leaning towards keeping one and taking the other back…

The chips were down…

24 Feb

at least the Kettle chips that is.  They were calling and calling to me today and I gave in…an 8 0z bag. 

Whenever this happens, I think, I don’t want to post it on the blog because I’m sure some people who read it think, “OKAY, so, we’ve heard this already…why are you posting it AGAIN?”  Well, the answer is, I need to confess it to stay as on track as I have been.  I need to say I did it.  It helps me.

Whenever I experience some significant movement in my weight loss, it seems to be followed in that same week with the ‘desire’ for chips.  The only word I can come up with is ‘self-sabotage’.  It’s a twisted kind of balancing act I do.  Can’t just experience the high of the success.  I have to also sneak in a reminder that I’m NOT a goal achiever. 

I know I’ve mentioned this before as well.  But, for some reason I keep repeating the behavior anyway.  So, if you are reading this – thanks for hearing my confession.  I’m afraid that if I keep these things secret, I’ll do them WAY more often than I do – because I can keep it to myself, which I think, feels even worse.


I reached a milestone in my weight loss today!

18 Feb

I’m still not ready to share how much I actually weigh.  But, let’s just say I’ve been wanting to reach this number and it’s been quite some time since I was even in the neighborhood!

T0day marked a total LBs lost of 27.5.  So close to 30, it’s VERY exciting.  I’m hoping this week I can hit the 30 LB mark.  Let’s see how I do.  When I DO hit it, I’ve got a nice little foot massage coupon burning a whole in my, um, email folder  just begging to be used.

Thanks, everyone, for your support and words of encouragement.  It means so much and makes me feel like I’ve got a ‘village’ behind me.

A second workout?

15 Feb

Have aliens invaded?  Who am I again?  Well, this is my plan for the day.  I’ve already got one under my belt – the circuit workout at the Y at noon.  Now I’m considering going to do the treadmill in a few minutes.

I’m trying to kickstart some weight loss.  I gained about 1 1/2 pounds last week with my travel to NY, Valentine’s Day and my inability to really excercise due to my foot (interesting, I accidentally typed ‘food injury’ instead of foot….hmmmm) injury.  I’ve also been hearing the salty crunchy banshees howling to me over the last couple of days. 

I THINK I upped my carb intake over the weekend (parm risotto on Friday – brownie for Valentine’s Day) and now I seem to be CRAVING them – the salty variety.  So, I’m trying to avoid them and get a little more exercise instead. 

My poor doggy won’t get a walk today – I can’t gym twice AND walk him because there is other stuff to do, too.  I was tightening my sneaker a few minutes ago, and he went shooting for the living room thinking we were going to walk.  I’ll just have to take him for a nice long one tomorrow.  He does love his walk.  Sorry Tuxy, but somtimes it has to be about me.

Please fasten your seat belts low and tight…

9 Feb

So, when I started this journey back in September, I believe I mentioned that one of the reasons I thought a blog was a good idea was because of the shame surrounding my weight and compulsive eating.  I was tired of all that shame I felt and hoped that if I admitted it, I’d feel more free (which I do) and maybe help someone else to feel less alone.  Well, in order to share today’s happy news, I must expose some of the shame associated with it.

It used to be that on most airplanes, I would need to ask for a seat belt extender as the one at my seat was just a bit too snug.  It was terribly embarrassing and I usually tried to find a way to ask without drawing too much attention to myself and the situation.  I always hoped the flight attendant would be somewhat sensitive in granting my request.  Most of the time they were kind.  It was also tough for me to put my tray table down for anything because it would hit my body and not completely open.

Well, today…..I didn’t need no stinkin’ extendah, and my tray table was perfectly usable.  I was soooooooooooooooooo thrilled.  I think this was the first time I really GOT the difference in my body size between now and 24ish LBs ago…the first time I could really see and ‘know’ the difference.  It was hugely exciting.  I even felt more comfortable in my seat, not feeling like I was spilling over into the next person’s chair.  I’m very happy experience this change.  It’s even better than smaller clothes!

I’m a little stressy about not working out this week, but will have to deal with getting back on that horse on Saturday.  With my sore foot (which is tons better) and being in NY for work, (I already have to get up at 6:00 just to get ready for meetings – which is really 3:00, ugh!) all day meetings, then evening events, it just won’t work.  Irrationally, I think I’m gonna gain all my weight back this week.  But, I’m already making good choices, so I think I’ll probably be okay.

Now, here’s to hopping I can fall asleep even though it’s really only 7:30 to my body clock!

Off to NYC tomorrow…

8 Feb

and, I feel a little silly to admit it, but I’m excited to wear my new (and newly altered) clothes!   Don’t know yet if my foot can get into new shoes, but we’ll play that one by ear…it’s feeling much better, but after running errands today, it was fatigued.

Maybe I can wear them while I’m sitting in meetings.  = )    It’s up to you, NY, NY…

Nuts and Bananas…

3 Feb

that’s what I say to my travel food dilemma. 

Next week, I fly to New York for a business trip and I’m starting to get a little anxious about what I’ll eat on plane days.  I leave E-A-R-L-Y on Wednesday morning – around 7:30, which means I have to be up by about 5:00 or 5:30.  I certainly don’t feel like eating THAT time of day.  Not only is it an early flight, but with the time change, by the time I get there it will be lunch time-ish, according to my body clock.  AND, by the time I get to my hotel, it will be around 5:00ish, just two hours from dinner.  Can’t really have a meal then. 

Of course, the day I leave home, I can make myself a healthy turkey sandwich to take on the plane.  Then I can supplement with my own snacks.  I’ll need some things that will travel well in case I don’t have time for a meal at the airport.  And, we know airplane food (which you now have to PAY for) ain’t good.  It’s a nasty combination of sodium grams and tastelessness.  No thanks!

So, here’s what I’m thinking.  I’ve got to take bananas and my own trail mix.  These items travel well, and unless there has been an update from the TSA of which I am uninformed, won’t be confiscated at security.  This will provide me with some protein and a little sugar boost for energy.  Carrots and celery will work, too.  (Is peanut butter considered a liquid?)

I just need to make sure I have things so I don’t grab an In-and-Out Burger  because I’m famished and have lost all lack of good sense.  I can even get a little panicky thinking, “Well, I won’t have anything on the plane for 5 hours (okay, I’ve gone 5 hours without food plenty of times!), so I’d better eat something ‘big’ now.” 

No.  I think this snack idea is a good one.  And, unless some bozo tries to hijack a plane with a loaded banana in the next few days, I should be in good shape!

If you’ve got other ideas about snacks that travel well, I’d love to hear them!